still

[lynxlady]

So with the anniversary of the passing of my love.. I still feel the pain, I don't know how long it lasts, but from the time I open my eye's in the morning till I close them at night, I think of him and still shed a tear at least daily.. I have laid a few babies beside him for him to look over over this year, I visit his grave,I think of this year and wish I could bring him back.. but with each day I see his brother Simba getting closer to joining him.. maybe watching Simba getting close is what keeps Stuffy on my mind.. Just wanted to let anyone who might have wondered why I haven't posted much, why..It's just hard for me but I do enjoy the stories and pictures of the kids, most of them are Simba's babies so it is wonderful to see them as they grow and make others happy.
Thanks for posting and the pictures..

[ron]

Thoughts are with you Arlene xoxo

[ubaste]

They certainly will always have that spot in our hearts, true unconditional love. I hope you're feeling alittle better.

[lynxlady]

Thanks, I appreciate all the love...I think in every life there is one love above everything, he was mine.. even if he had 4 legs, he was and always will be the great love of my life and missed everyday. I just hope some day the pain will lessen and I can forgive myself for not double checking my vet as to what was actually wrong with him and doing something about it, not excepting that it was nothing until the end when it was too late to do anything. I know I have to let it go but I think I am just so angry with myself and sad for him that I didn't help him.. that is what hurts the most I think.. just stupid on my part, my fault. So I beat myself up daily..it's good for me and I deserve it, thanks for caring, but don't feel bad for me..